You See it, Now You Don't
the great mystics tell us that we will never find our real
self because our real self is non-different from existence,
non-different from the "good, the true, and the beautiful,
and we cannot know truth as an object. We can become truth
but then we will have disappeared "as the drop of water
into the sea," the drop of water representing our self.
But somewhere between enlightenment and manic-depression there
is some essential progress that can be made. Somewhere between
our grossly unconscious way of living and the light of complete
consciousness and cosmic awareness, there is the possibility
of improvement. At least, if we get a little objectivity on
our modus operandi as a person who is heavily into rote and
autonomic behavior, we can start to see that we don't have
to blindly go along with our habitual ideas and feelings.
The mind can call a panic, and we can refuse to go.
is an exercise that shows us how unnecessarily opaque and
heavy with our own problems we have become. It gives us a
hint that we are looking at the wrong side of life. We have
been looking into our mind as reality. We are so used to our
collapse into "dream past" and "dream future"
that we really don't know what a clear present is. Everybody
says "live in the now," but few of us grasp even
intellectually what that means. That is because we can't experience
now as an object. We can be now, but we can't know now.
the exercise. We sit quietly somewhere outside and feel we
are slowing fading away like a rainbow. We are growing fainter
and fainter. We disappear. We just will it, for a second or
two, to not be. The outside world itself, the sky, the trees
are still here. The outside is still here and now, Right?
Only we are gone. Quick, is anyone missing?
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